My last entry was April 2016. Nearly two years ago. TWO FUCKING YEARS AGO.
2016 sucked. That is what happened.
It took all of 2017 and a new man in my life to help me recover.
Restraining order against my boyfriend of 5 years. He had stalking problems and then when it was clear the relationship was heading towards IT’S FUCKING OVER like 8 months ago, he threatened to harm me. Considering he had killed a family pet during his marriage…well, I wasn’t going to take any chances that he would continue to stalk me and do harm to my pets.
My son moved out. WOW. Who knew empty nest syndrome could be SO unsettling to your entire existence. Now, don’t get me wrong, I WANTED him to go. Be free! Be Free!!! But, it was much harder than I thought.
A nasty person at work and unfortunately on my team, coupled with a tech lead who wanted to be the Project manager coupled with a new manager looking to make his mark all equaled a bunch of lies and a threat of HR…on me. The new manager fueled the fire, backstabbed the group he is part of and encouraged this person to go to HR on me and the entire team. On lies. Yes, truly lies. I was so shocked by the fact that I was removed as project manager with ZERO knowledge that something was wrong. Shocked that management would do this on lies with no discussion with the team. At the end of the day, management admitted they USED ME AS A SCAPE GOAT. WTF.
In the end, the bad people got what they deserved. Her boss was FIRED. And she was encouraged to leave.
ME?? I was moved into a whole new department and have been doing great ever since.
However, it took about 4 months of doing nothing but hating my job, not trusting ANYONE where I worked and getting extremely high with an asshole for 4 months. Ok, I didn’t KNOW he was an asshole at the time. I was too emotionally devasted to notice anything. (He had a little prostitute, gun, drug problem. He wasn’t sleeping with them, he just thought he was their fucking pimp. Seriously. I’m so not joking. Come to find out, he had been hiding guns in my house. WTF.)
Sept 2016: A friend died
Nov 2016: My uncle died.
So, by the time December came around, I just couldn’t wait for the year to end.
Dumped the ugly old man I thought had my friend.
Took on the new role officially at work project managing hardware for our department. I love it, BTW. However, a year later, getting a bit bored. We will talk more about that another time.
Met the love of my life. Seriously. July 3rd, 2017, this guy walks up to me and for a moment through my drunken haze, I saw an angel. He moved in and it has become the most incredible relationship ever. I know, it’s so sad that I won’t have any relationship drama to vomit all over the internet. SO SAD.
I have never had such a loving man in my life. He built me back up. He tells me how amazing I am everyday. He repaired all the damage from the Ugly Old Man. He repaired the trust from the Stalker. He is smart, talented, creative beyond belief. And, my perfect sexual partner. We hug and kiss each other alot, every day. We say kind words to each other (not so much in a fight, we fight ugly), but those fights helped us work through nearly every piece of baggage.
I wanted to quit. He wouldn’t let us. And now?
2018 – Here we are!!!!
I refi’d my house. THANK YOU POT for increasing everyone’s home value! Not sure what I am doing with the money, have some ideas, just knowing though, that I can do something to improve my financial situation is HUGE.
Him and I have started a business together. Well, it was his consulting business that has helped him stay afloat for 16 years, but now, he has a home base. I want to get out of the corporate soul sucking world I live in so I am his marketing director. I am having so much fun!!
Well, I will save my ADHD experience updates for another blog post. Just wanted to reconnect with the internet…….
Happy 2018 friends.